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Thursday, August 4, 2011

Regret

A friend of mine on Facebook tagged a video of what would have been my senior year with my name. I watched the entire 17 minutes and felt an overwhelming sense of regret by the end. I was not a well behaved teenager. I know most aren't, but I was worse than most although not as bad as some. I thought I was too cool for school. Boy was I wrong!! I went to that high school for my freshman year, then got kicked out and sent to another high school. I lasted there through the middle of my junior year and then left for home schooling. I never finished my senior year. Instead, I took the GED the month I was supposed to graduate. I missed out on so many high school experiences. I never went to a prom, never did any of the senior activities and never walked to get a diploma. At that time I didn't think it was anything, but now I regret it so much. I wish I had been smart enough to realize that those things would have been fun and I would have enjoyed myself. Instead, I was drinking, smoking and hanging out with a bad crowd. Granted, I would not have met The Man if I did not go the route I did, so I am grateful for that. I just wish I had been able to experience the other things too.

I sure hope I get to see my daughter enjoy all that high school has to offer. From what I understand, it's unforgettable.

2 comments:

  1. I totally understand this! My biggest mistake in life is not going to high school. I begged my parents to let me do homeschool from 9th on, just to be with my boyfriend at the time. Then got into drugs for about 7years. I lost all my confidence, all my friends, and I lost how to socialize. As much as I hated what I did, I probably wouldn't be where I am today. You have totally inspired me to write about this on my blog. Thank you. All we can do is make sure we don't let our kids make the same mistakes we did.

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  2. Ditto Mama, Ditto. It's definitely a lesson we learned that we can teach our little ones. Arya is sooo lucky to have a Mama like you!

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